I took the time to read my older writings tonight.

And boy I laughed a lot. How I was so naive, stupid and very sadistic in some.

Here's to the future and may it not suck.

What's inside?

Good morning.
I want my coffee now.
Oh wait, I'm not allowed coffee.
What's that pain?
Just ignore it. Time for shower.
Oh shit, that limb was not supposed to swell.
Meds, meds, meds.
Time for school.
Breathe in, breathe out.
STOP hyperventilating!
Kids are watching, act cool.
Why is that pain still there?  I took my meds!
Oh its gone now.
Time to text my baby.
Oh he misses me. Cute.
Send lots of kisses.
Suddenly I feel depressed.
Ow, ow, ow.
Time to go home.
Housemates cook so good.
Dammit I can't eat that.
Why can't you cook good with stuff I'm allowed to eat?
Meds, meds, meds.
Skype with baby.
Everything is fine, I'm OK.
My head is throbbing, but goodnight.


Remember back when I rhyme?
with the moon and the sun,
I was laughing, playing, anything
And it was less for a dime.

But remember how suddenly everything taste like crime?
Washing sadness with the spoon and the gun,
I hated something, everything, anything
And I wanted less time.

Now, I found myself wanting to rhyme
for someone is making me swoon and so fun,
I am smiling, living, trying
And I need more time.

I don't give a damn.

I don't give a damn,
When the clothes are stacked not according colour scheme,
When the door left slightly ajar or
when someone left the cap off the tube of cream.

I don't give a damn,
When my feet ache,
When my lungs are constricted or
when my fingers start to shake.

But I do give a damn,
I do,
I do,
And it all comes back to you.